Hopezz ^^

2 feb 2012

2012-02-02T07:35:00.001-08:00

Second day of emo-ing, today woke up actually in a happy mood then after that I heard some songs, I sing with my mummy . When I'm in car I can't bear with it I silently cried I think the rest of the month also should be like this I really really trying my best just to hide my sadness away, during work time I'm just looking at the clock wanted to fly over to find my mummy but I also feel that I'm sorry for my Lao zhu cause I can't help her for the whole day I left her alone. :( I walk out of office raining heavily I cried along the way to mrt since its raining and there won't be anyone looking. When I reach saw mummy I'm so so HAPPY ! Then bring her see doctor first then after that we shop some clothes for her after that they went off, then have dinner . That's all for the day but whenever I think I keep on crying ... Hard day ! When I'm young I keep on counting till how old I can see my parents then keep on counting the age between me and them when after counting I realize human will pass away one day and ended up in crying but now I keep thinking that I can't see them I don't have a family ! I really feel very very very SAD ! EMO-ING

2 Feb 2012

2012-02-01T08:31:00.001-08:00

First day of emo-ing seriously totally no mood for anything in office totally like a zombie, hais no mood for everything, everything also do wrong. Hais ~ wanted to cry but I cannot CRY ! Cause I won't give up. Mummy just called me and tell me the whole story , about what happen yesterday, seriously I don't know why is he like that ! Is like this kind of words he cannot take it ! DAMN ! Then mummy confirm with me that she going to divorce with him. I also quite happy or her finally she found her own freedom and no longer need to feel all those pain she had . No matter what I'll take care of my brother I won't like him hungry like he did ! NOW! I'm standing in my mother role I gotta learn washing clothes . I hope he will really just fuck off ..

1 FEB 2012

2012-01-31T08:45:00.001-08:00

YES ! It's already 2012 ! I thought everything will be OVER ! And what the fuck I saw ? When I just reach home I thought nothing will happen in the end that FUCKER run out of the room and push my mummy towards her face and she FALL ! And the glasses broke again . Its happening again and over again I seriously wanted them to divorce it's is really better for my mummy as for me I'm ok with it we all grow . I can just work hard and take care of my brother and I can feed him ! I no need that bastard help . Thanks god im still alive TODAY ! Im really sick and tired of it ! Saw this kind of things happen and happen again till I really got phobia with it ! Saw one time can at least last for a month in my memory but the pain still stays ! :( I really can't take it anymore im going to become crazy !! FUCKER !!!! I'll always HATE HIM TO THE MAX .

18 jan 2012

2012-01-16T08:06:00.001-08:00

Time fly so fast , it's gonna be Chinese new year firstly I think I gonna get a big big bag to fill with a lot a lot of red packets haha. Recently have been going bugis again and again with my dearest ah pa (lion) LOL .. Haha bring "him" to bugis "market" to shop around quite addictive I think he can buy down the whole shop la ! Hahah. So damn fun at least I won't be rotting at home now and no need think so much , work go out till tired then reach home bath then bomb sleep. Enjoy doing the same thing again and again everyday got so much happening things going on . Meow .. Short posting nights everyone .

12 Jan 2012

2012-01-12T03:26:00.001-08:00

Wonderful now I'm like living in a prison, asking me this and that argh ! PLEASE I NEED SOME PRIVACY ! Being a friend it's like so so hard already.

3 Jan 2012

2012-01-02T09:41:00.001-08:00

Weee ~ finally is 2012 ! Thought it was a good start, but then im wrong starting from christmas eve i stayed at home like an idiot luckily my dearest colleague going out that's why I can tag along, count down nothing much just have some drinks with panda and some of her friends. This few days really very emo. how pathetic am I when all this special occasion came and I've no one to go out with, I've to stay at home :( i dont want ! I'm also afraid to mix around, people who knows me well will know what happen . Hais ~ then about the rest of the occasion ? I also have to celebrate it alone ? I don't want T.T I just want one group or few people which I really trust , 季节提醒我孤单. Sometimes I think that just work and work and went back home rest when comes to weekends I've nothing to do again I've to rot at home maybe the whole house is empty or my brother company me. I just wanted people to understand me accompany me and don't left me alone. Seriously I'm tired le I haven been crying for like months le which I think I make a great improvement the fact is wrong actually I'm trying to make myself busy and not to think about all this things telling myself that there is no one there it's ok ! I'm ok . If anyone of you put into my shoe and think about it when there's no one there and when you really feel like dying cause thinking this world there's not meaningful for you anymore. 我说我不哭是假的。我也是人有感情。stay at home keep on nagging nag and nag, yes ! I'm lazy this is the fact but I'm really feeling very very tired I don't feel like doing anything. All along the way I'm not doing well, I hate myself those people who have show me lots of concern thanks a lot to you guys. I'll never forget and those who have ever help me . Well well well ... I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING AND START A NEW LIFE .......

Ahhhhhhhhhhh ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

没人知道我多孤单。

10 December 2011

2011-12-10T11:44:00.001-08:00

Weee ~ Friday night go drink after that seh seh go work during morning but surprisingly I still can wake up, then I heard a good news my mood is like flying woohoo, nothing much happen in office after work went to meet DARLING ! So damn long didn't meet her le, after that when bugis we go eat eat then walk walk around after that Lawrence came we decided to sing :D Went back to hougang plaza regular place hehe, then while singing that time some super irritating people keep on calling and texting NON STOP ! I si bei du lan ! If I'll her I won't choose this kind of guys and break off LONG DAMN TIME AGO. We switch to VIP room due to machine problem ! Haha we like WOW ! the room so power ^^ happy happy as If like real life concert. Sing half way quek quek came ! Then a while later somebody coming to fetch darling ! EH ! HELLO ! DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD IS SHE .. WHEN SHE KEEP ON CRYING DON'T WANT TO GO OFF WHO'S FAULT I SERIOUSLY TELL YOU IF ONE DAY SHE GONE MAD I'LL BE THE FIRST ONE TO FIND YOU ! YOU'RE THE PERSON WHO LET HER BECOME LIKE THIS.YOU KNOW WHATS THE FEELIG STAYING IN THE PRISON FINALLY RELISE YOU KNOW THAT KIND OF FEELING A NOT ? YOU ALSO CARE ABOUT YOURSELF HOW ABOUT HER ? LET HER OUT AWHILE CALL LIKE DON'T KNOW HOW MANY 100 X ? YOU JUST TOO SELFISH ! FCKING HELL ! SO STOP CONTROL HER AND YOU ARE ALSO THE SAME PATTERN AS ALL HER EX ! tsk tsk tsk ...

After that went back to sing, till now just reach home actually can be so happy but then in the end !! FUCK !

10 nov

2011-11-11T05:34:00.001-08:00

Recently, fall sick and emo have been chasing me so fast that I can't even recognize myself anymore :( last night, have a quarrel about the same thing ? I knew that for this month I won't have extra money or even enough saving, i used $300 to change to Taiwan dollar I use for my bills, my transport and food, I don't bother to tell her cause whatever I said I also no used. So I just told her I've not cannot give you money she gave me a disappointed look which really make me feels so much pain ! :( 我觉得我很不孝。but I don't really have a choice then she added in then electric bills 600 + I'm not gonna pay ! I walk to my in close the door and hide inside my blanket and I cry after awhile it I cry till numb all my nonsense came back think only 2 people realize so should keep it as a secret.I did it not because I'm crazy because I should deserve how the pain it is. I really don't know how to do, or what to do ? Can someone just guide me through ? Tired of everything :(

5,6,7 November 2011

2011-11-08T04:28:00.001-08:00

Gonna be in very detail cause i want to remember everything ! Wee wee wee ... On the 4th of november I asked my bro and his friend to ton with me ! I knew once I sleep everything gonna be GG ! I won't be able to wake up, then after that time to fetch them one by one, then off we went to airport. We reach first follow by the rest I'm so EXCITED ! Then after that we have our breakfast and im busy searching for my language key ! check In funny things starts aunty Cheryl wears the shoe with sharp sharp tons and ask to take off ! We guys there laughing non -stop Have the best view outside thanks guys for letting me sit at the window seats mountain tortise like me didn't take plane, enjoy the view !! I took some photos of it will be posting up soon when I've energy . After 4 hours of flight we finally reach Taiwan, and Internet cheat our feelings we bring those very thick clothing in the end,The weather is like 29 c -.- reach there walk around and took bus bus to our hotel reach there thought the hotel is like nearby those shopping centre this kind of area the surrounding is those shophouses GOOD check in hotel and throw all my things out searching for the KEY ! but best thing is i didnt bring, thanks 和尚 help me open. have our lunch nearby our hotel and after that shop around the area it's like Bugis street, the sky there very dark 5 plus like this already look like 7 or 8.we have our dinner and off we went to clubbing I'm so damn worried I can't get in cause most of the club need to be at least 18 I'm luck enough, club is 100xx better than our singapore. Start chilling around after that dance dance wow first time I dance till so high LOL ! I remember I don't dance in club .. Then IM DRUNK :( don't really remember what happen but I know something is I need to GO ON DIET ! Uncle Faizal complaining I'm very heavy when carrying me :( but still need to thanks him if not I going to sleep there.

SECOND DAY !
Overslept overslept ! I'm too tired already so is my partner, we are LATE ! and I'm suffering from hangover walking seh seh like this for the whole trip, heard that people said me cry last night ! I think I know what I think and why am I crying like crazy LOL ..then heard many of people drunk too not only me but I'm one of them then the ways the bring them back I'm laughing non stop like uncle Vicky they put him in car booth After reach hotel put him on language thingy and push him back to room, and uncle derrick still said he seh seh don't know what the pushing hahahaha .. After that uncle Rizal fall asleep in the toilet , 和尚 dancing very high I missed all that SHIT ! have our own tour first destination to Dan shui there is great but the traffic is really very dangerous cars and motor along the road, have some shopping over there still very seh then next stop to Taipei 101 there got lots of people we have to wait for seats ! And lots of food but I think I'm not suitable to live there cause I'm not use eating food there. After eating walk walk awhile found a spot and we rest and chat talking lots of rubbish laughing like hell, next stop to xi men ding free an easy walk till my leg damn pain plus very tired don't really shop there cause lots of people plus a bit not feeling well, didn't bought things just walk walk then last min bought a bag and a cloth for myself, and lots of tibits , went to Lao zhu and Gui room we chat chat there and have the Maggie mee very NICE ! got real meat inside. After that back to my own room, then went to opposite hotel with Aunty Cheryl and uncle Jason to check the rates for breakfast ! Then too happening we thinking to have a walk then all most of them came down to lobby even boss, so we decided to go club again since it the last night, again I have to worry how old then can enter the club ! Luckily again is 18 weee ~ have a sit then there's competition going on 4 people is dancing ! And one of the girls took off her CLOTHES ! Left with her bra and then second round she took off HER UPPER CLOTHING ! But outcoming result she didn't win ! LOL.. Just because of the 2000 ! I think Singapore club if girls doing that the bouncer CONFIRM throw the girl out .. Then dance dance and drink and went back the hotel .

THRID DAY - last day ..
We're late again but it's not that late as second day keep everything went to bath and off we go for tarts after that to steamboat !! The mee is nice :D we ate a lot of packet . Have some photo taken then after that straight went to airport !! We're rotting there seriously nothing to do we're there as early as 3 plus if I'm not wrong and we can only check in at 5.10 ! We rest at a area create so much jokes ! We laugh as if we're crazy people looking at us, then after that finally we can check in, sit in the plane again 4 hours back to SINGAPORE ! weee ... But I'm really really very tired and I'm having slightly fever walking like a dead, but I can't mc for the next day also so after that wait for the rest of them to shop at tax free and off we went thanks Aunty Cherly fetch me home , reach home mummy is still not asleep she is nagging at me for not buying anything :( tired after nagging went to sleep ! It's really great experience although the trip plan is not really successful ! I really enjoy a lot the stay with them.

WONDERFUL TRIP !! :D I'll always remember all this ..

5 october 2011

2011-10-05T06:38:00.001-07:00

I'm finally back blogging again, my birthday celebration is so great thanks to all my dearest colleague plus my friends and those Facebook friends wishing me :D I'm so so happy. After my birthday I seem like being so tiring and then my irritating headache is back to me again :( ahhh ! Help... Today the work is like one whole stack of PAPERS ! o.o like everlasting finish then need do do do ... Who saids what is not tiring ? Now I understand, how it is cannot cope with stress and by putting lots more into it and become a bomb. But first to die I don't think it will be me confirm my dearest teacher and gui die first :x but I really wish to help them rather than siting there and nothing to do and they don't have to end work so late and enjoy the rest of the day with family member . As for me early or late end work it's really doesn't matter to me cause it's still the same I rather stay late do till really knock down then home bath and just sleep ... Haha .. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for all of us .

11 September 2011

2011-09-11T05:19:00.001-07:00

Weee ~ updating blog, self awake at 12.40 after that gui, sms me not enough sleep ! Going to become zombie tomorrow, after that went to woodlands lots of food to eat as usual still very ps. After that start table, woohoo ! We play blackjack then I keep wining and lost final is ....... I lost $5. Haha, after that went to far east to have dinner shop a while and home sweet home.

10 sep 2011

2011-09-09T12:05:00.001-07:00

Weee ~ I'm back blogging once again, hmmm.. I found the apps for iPhone therefore I should update my blog regularly. Woke up at 10 ++ By my phone, so many phone calls and messages after that fall asleep back till 1.30 found out I'm late! O.o run to prepare and then went out to the first celebration at Nora's house lots of food :D and finally my pineapple tarts weeee .. After celebration we went to tampines to find presents but most of the time we like looking for our stuff :x opss.. Went to Roy, there lots of people. What an unlucky day ! My shoe spoil half way !! Then after that when home meow meow at downstairs she still follow me up, after sending her down don't know how she came up amazing..

16 August 2011

2011-08-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

Time have fly so fast ~

I'm finally back to blogging, it's so so tiring everyday recently latest fall asleep at 12 am not later than that am too tired, however, few hours of sleep is still not enough for me imagining i've been sleep 17 hours when i'm off that is how tired am i, a lot of things happening as usual, difficult to explain but start to understand things and most of the things is not that easy as what i seen, like how many kind of people are there or wearing mask daily, being a 2 sided person. I'm glad that there are still people who are there to care for me ♥♥♥ those kind of feeling hardly to describe.

More people is leaving us soon, wonder is there any different after that ? :( hais ~ Another sudden attack in my life which make me real confuse but hopefully those is just what i thought it won't happen. Something which i really kept in my heart but i just can't said out till it is the right time to say anything. tsk tsk . byeee ~ everyone.

~If you choose to give up,

i'll not stop you but i'll said that it still not the time to make up decisions.

28 July 2011

2011-07-28T03:39:00.001-07:00

Weeeeeeee ~ super super long did'nt update my blog blog already, Suffering from insufficent rest for this whole week all the way till Sunday, Starting from last Sat slept at 4am then woke up 9am, Sunday- 2 to 3 am to 6.30 am Monday 12 am to 6.30am, tue- 11 am to 6.30 wed 2 am to 6.30 Thursday... hmmmmm ~ i wonder what time am i sleeping tonight, i still got 2 more days to gooooooooooooooooooooooooo ... tired tired tired ! Yesterday, all damn too-pid :X all suddenly get so addictied to facebook all gone crazy, have lots of disturbing also -.- who is the most who kana all this kind of stuff ? of course is ME ! LOL ~ and and and today i reciveve a DORAEMON BANK BANK :D thanks Cherly i think she is hinting me to save more more money then spending every single money of it . One more days to my brother birthday, going to disturb him again growing OLDER :x alright stopp crapping

~ bye bye

13 July 2011

2011-07-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeee ~ i'm back to blogging.. BEST ! today lots of jokes happening :D morning as usual nothing much doing the same thing after that afternoon time, starting to things to do, woohoo, then finish everything after that went home got 2 JOKER MAKING ME LAUGH LIKE MAKE ! hahaha ! Firstly, Mr Ahbang saw the dog outside AB room and then he run all the way behind the warehouse should see in real life how fast he run vroooommm .. GONE and hide inside the ops room LOL ! after that uncle send me back home home, almost reaching home one of the car suddenly cut infront of us almost hit the car then MR Uncle point out something ! HAHAHAHA ! I'M LAUGHING NON-STOP !!

8 July 2011

2011-07-08T08:18:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeee ~ i'm back to blogging today, Early in the morning got lots of lots of stuff to do so damn chaotic, like fighting in a war but manage to finish everything, after that things getting slightly better after favorite time LUNCH TIME :D lot's of food for me to eat, eating like a hungry ghost after lunch super tired ! almost fall asleep ! my eyes is like -.- then start to do my daily job, today knock off is so lonely all the people went off left me alone, but then i stay late at least i got help out a bit :D then waited for them to ready and went off have our DINNER at around 9 like this and tonight i'm gonna sleep early and prepare for tomorrow and there's chalet tomorrow woohooooooooooooo ~~~~~~~~~~~~ AHHHH ! tired.. should stop right near nights everyone :D

7 july 2011

2011-07-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

back to blogging .... This few days got lots of lots of thing get mess UP ! WHICH CAN'T BE HAPPEN WHY IS IT HAPPENING AGAIN :( FML ! When things happen and i don't know how to settle can only ask for help... hais ~ really so helpless, thought should be getting better instead of getting WORST ! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~ i'm going to be crazy soon plus office de rumors, how am i going to survive ?? when i'm trying to be happy and just forget everything.. HAIS HAIS HAIS ~ i'm tired really tired, but then i've to hang on this is a promise to myself . AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

like today wrong again almost get reject and many people also will get into trouble, i really really hanging my tears i went to toilet and cool myself down if not i'm gonna cry in the office for sure, i'm trying hard to STOP ! i look happy but you guys are wrong i'm not. I don't want you guys to get stress up too... so saying rubbish to make you all relax a bit hope i do those things won't let you all feel irritated.

17 June 2011

2011-06-17T04:11:00.000-07:00

Weeee ~ Finally back to blogging again this few days really very tired have been going out when i reached home i'm fucking tired just fall asleep don't even know how long i didn't touch my lappy le and my 60 plus Ep of drama is still not yet finish :( wonder how long i can finally finish. Yawn tomorrow sat ! gonna sleep till damn late weeeee ~ and back to KTV again with Panda.

11 June 2011

2011-06-10T19:55:00.000-07:00

Weeeee ~ I'm back to blogging again,

Mummy went for holiday, 5 days first day already started to miss her already is like so quiet, was damn bored and i guess i got lots of housework to do which i hate the mots !!! :(

As usual work work work ! :D Hehe, everyday work is so damn good, but then the timing if adjust is the best ! :D then i wake up later no need so early weeee ~ Counting down 4 days,

MUMMY MUST FASTER COME BACK !

3 June 2011

2011-06-03T13:21:00.000-07:00

Panda Sister :D

Back to blogging again nowadays not feeling real well, having block nose for like hmmm 3 days ? didn't get any better and getting worst till i got FEVER and is not stable up and down :( Manage to finish work for today, As u

sual always that good girl :X This few days totally like walking dead or rather called "Zombie" ! and then office is back to silent once again without all my CRAPS ! wait for me when i get well i will have lots of craps again :D. Have lots of job for this few days but thanks them for showing Mercy if not i guess i stare at the paper for 1 hour i didn't even start a single thing. After work went to Marina Square for dinner just nice Panda working there today, so went to find her at the mean time we went for dinner first she knock off we change to........ KBOX ! WOOOHOOOOOOOOO ~ so high and so damn long never meet her already, but then arghhh ! block nose make my voice like !##%$@$#%$# cannot make it T.T sing till 3am then GO HOME ! have a wonderful night :D

27 May 2011

2011-05-27T11:47:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeeeee ~ Back to blogging, Today woke up kinda early, After that was still early went to Expo Bought Breakfast supposedly gonna have BK for Breakfast but then too BAD ! Haven open sian so have Subway for breakfast back to office was late 10 mins office is like so empty, have my bread bread and 1 L of milk as usual, Then early in the morning Teacher already create joke for me ! HAHAHA ! I can't stop laughing but i'm like so bad lor :X When i think of that i can continuously laugh for don't know they must be thinking i'm Crazy. Ehem Ehem ! Serious !! Then start to do the Forms, beginning is LIKE ALREADY MESS UP :( AND GETTING STRESS UP ! CAUSE VERY VERY BLUR, Is it because of insufficient of sleep ? Then next more worst early in the morning already feel like BANGING THE WALL ! Then going to lunch that time talk about something which really making my tears fall but i'm bearing with it i don't know they can see it a not ehh i think better not, cause if i cried it's not gonna stop as well T.T, and i forgotten something important somemore making it worst, Then lunch time weeeeeeeeee ~ Have KFC for lunch thanks Vic- Principal for treating yum yum gonna get fat SOOON ~ After that continue doing was a bit relax cause i guess they also know i damn stress, But then WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER EVERYTHING BEEN THOUGHT ?! KEEP REPEATING THE SAME THING, Make things troublesome for them i feeling bad too ! Early celebration for Dexter too given him a Surprise, and then knock off went to Arcade and then BOWWWLING ~ i'm so lousy in it, Aiming like -.- .. Guess tomorrow suffering from muscle cramp ! hehehe ~ having event for tomorrow weeeeeeeeeeee ~Good nights everyone :D:D:D:D

Gonna Keep practicing and not GIVING UP !

24 May 2011

2011-05-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Weee ~ Once again i'm back to blogging, Yesterday I've been confirm yi pi ya ya yi pi yee pi ya ~ :p I'm so happy :D As usual work work and work, but then i enjoy working a lot cause not like so boring ~ All of them is so fun ehh guess i'm the "Entertainer" over there to make everyone so high and energetic out of just 1 mins, lalala ~ Isn't this better then those quiet and by stressing with lots of work to do ? Hopefully they don't feel me annoying that's the only thing, Hmmm .. Weather is so so hot ! Guess the weather gonna be all the way till June or July :( So People drink lots of lots of lots of WA-TER to get rid of sickness yeah :D

Good nights everyone ~~~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~

14 May 2011

2011-05-14T12:05:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blogging weeeeeeee ~ i'm so bored staying at home nothing to do ! Nowadays start to watch drama again, Korean Drama "同伊“ the drama is so nice la ! Like last time "大长今", But then need really consecrate cause there's not translation just Subtitle starting to watch few ep i need to keep pausing cause they talk so fast !!! Dont get what they saying about but then after that is better already, Last night, have Dinner at Sakura at Pasir Ris downtown eaten really really full then i've been quite tired over there ba, cause Mr Lau talk about something then i keep thinking this and that then somehow got a bit emo le not talking again :( after dinner went to Kbox with Derrick again this is the third time already, we 2 like so crazy just 1 month went there so many many time but then yesterday my voice like SHIT ! LOL ~ don't know is it moody then like this yesterday drank just a trequila Coke then felt a bit seh liao ~ hmmmm ! then after K have mac lots of things to talk about office staff and my personal stuff i guess he confirm kana shock a lot of times HAHAHA :x after that went home it's like almost 5 then wash up and sleep ~ And woke up at 8 today to work, dragging myself away from my BED ! then cycle count with Dexter and Cheryl somehow i stay there long liao i felt like i'm like so extra lor, plus the room is really stuffy inside i start to feel headache again, plus LACK OF WATER ! office run out of water :( reach home around nearly 3 then bath and then lalala land all the way till 9 ++ then brother cook Fried Rice for me :D:D nice nice, then here am i waiting for the drama to load and i'm gonna sleep soon already damn tired ! -.- tomorrow any event ? Hopefully there is .

Good nights everyone... .

10 May 2011

2011-05-10T08:15:00.000-07:00

我的心真的很痛..

I'm back to blogging again finally ~ This few days nothing much happening again work and work as usual, but then this month there's a lot of holiday :D but then 1 thing is holiday also no use nothing to do ? SPENDING MY HOLIDAYS AT HOME ! HOW PATHETIC IS IT ?! I WANNA GO OUT !~ ANYONE ANYONE ....

have been emo-ing again, people gonna ask me what happen but then i guess all the answer im gonna give is nothing i'm just fine with a *fake smile* actually it's hurts a lot from last or NOW ! Last time i've a lot of friends around me which i could just thinks of way to help them when i got stress up and thinking how to solve it i'm rather happy cause they trust me rather then NOW ! not much people around me so nothing much to stress on mind left so much BLANKS but then the problem is i felt so so lonely from don't know when till now i'm like just concentrating on my work nothing much, push everything a side, and get myself busy so there's no time for me to think this and that, but then whenever i'm alone the feeling came back to me which making me feeling TERRIBLE ! those kind of feelings is unexplainable, I left ??? in my mind thats will be my last conclusion after i remember all those stuff and think how stupid am i to make all those decisions which could not turn back. HAPPY MOMENTS ? HAHA ! how pathetic am i ? No ones actually knows about it, step into a wrong area, wrong decisions, been ignore and then kick out ?! I NEED MORE LUCK TO KEEP MY LIFE GOING ON ~

5 May 2011

2011-05-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blogging, hmmm nothing much to update just work and work :) Second to almost the third month of my job, Firstly i would like to thanks my parents friends to introduce me a great job :D Thanks uncle Ben. There's a lot of people i want to thanks. Everything starts from Beginning,

JACE,Thank for sending me to work and back home first day of work i'm late then got scolding from then from that on actually a bit scare of you but then now should be ok already :X

When i step in to the company i started with Sales first as i'm not really those kind of outspoken person, plus i'm those kind who is super shy one ! But luckily this friendly manager of mine start to talk to me a lot a lot of things regarding to family, relationship and personal stuff.

Dexter, Thank to guide me throughout all the problem i'm facing and advice given by you is really useful, I will still continue to plan how my life it gonna to be :D

Faizal, Thank for guiding me in AB, Everytime i got in mistake you're the one helping me to solve, and you will always said "Nevermind learn from your mistake will get better next time".

Few weeks later, I get into Cs they are very friendly but then still a bit scare. They arrange Cherlyn to teach me all the stuff so i called her mine teacher.

Cherlyn, Thank for teaching me and being patience with me,I knew I done a lot of careless mistake but you never scold me and just encourage me, you will said " Do wrong nevermind you will helped me up" but hopefully i won't drive you crazy. :D You try to get everything done smoothly.

CS manager so i called her Principal :D

Faith, Thank for guiding me and print out notes for me, cheering me up and ask me not to give up " Believe in myself" recently I've finance problem every morning you will bought me a 1L HL milk :D

And of course the last person who i wanted to thanks. Boss-Lao da

Shuan, Thank for accepting me to this company, and thank for the help i will never forget :D you're the best boss I've.

All is my thank you speech ! hahaha :D nothing much to post. Good nights.

25 April 2011

2011-04-25T06:45:00.000-07:00

COUSIN :D

It have been so so long i didnt update my blog again, due to insufficient of time i guess this weeks i didnt sleep more then 5 hour or less than that my cousin from Austria is back to Singapore most of the time make visits over there, it was so so tired, But most of the time is busy working miss out a lot a lot of events with event such as Universal Studio which i'm damn regretted, cause promise my sales track that i will be working, Next Pulau Ubin which is quite interesting and i overslept at my friend's house that day turn up LATE ! last one is Wild Wild Wet ! i miss it too due to too tired ! ALL THE EVENTS I MISSED ! :( But then luckily still have some photos with them :D Have BBQ on Sunday which is Cynthia's Birthday , and the last day their stayed in Singapore. Have lots of fun and i'm broke . Gonna save up the money and hang on till 1st of may. Hmmm .. nothing much to update miss a lot of my friend which i never met up for quite long. Good nights everyone :D

Emily and me :)

Emily,Me & Lily

Emily and Me :)

My Brother,Uncle and me

Lily and Me :D

Lily and me

Me and my brother

Me and my brother :D

Smile :D

hehehe :D

Alan and me

Lily and my brother

Emily and my brother

My brother,Emily and me

Mandy,me and my brother (gay)

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The End :D

4 April 2011

2011-04-04T06:04:00.000-07:00

I'm Sick

Today woke up at around 10 plus then was having slightly fever walking like seh seh like this, :( lie on bed no appetite, my brother friend came then after that went to find his hp, then i keep feeling very cold :( My fever is up and down. Hopefully after this i'm going to lose weight ! and and and there is so many many Medicine to eat very xin ku :( Tomorrow going back to work le. Gonna sleep early tonight good night everyone.

Photo time ~

Nadiah mei & Me

3 Sisters

Azira & Me

LOVE LOVE ~

Sharon and Me

31 March 2011

2011-03-31T09:07:00.000-07:00

Last day of the month, got my salary today :D:D weeeeeeee ~ Recall for first month all of them is so friendly, and i did a lot a lots of mistake shouldn't have done all CARELESS :( but then they keep forgive me sometimes i feel guilty too cause make them done double job. I will work harder for next month :D i will jiayou de ~

Today actually quite sad cause, 2 of my colleague leaving :( then is like so shocking after heard that news ~ i thought it was just lying but then gone ~ LOL ~ i don't know why somehow in the morning i heard that news i felt quite sad and almost cried out but then i choose to leave office, so that i won't cried but then when i went up she was gone T.T Nevermind hopefully there's still chance to meet out ? or something ? TOO EMOTIONAL ! After that just continue doing work today nothing much and i started learning CS stuff le it's like so difficult i guess i need time to figure out. I still have lots of lots of stuff to learn. Tomorrow a brand new month :D Should sleep early good nights everyone LOVES .

27 March 2011

2011-03-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

Woohoo ~ Good day, Last night i slept at 8pm was really really very early woke up once at around 3 plus and another time is at 7 am i looked at the time i was like wahh ! still so early uh then went back to la la land. Woke up at 8 am today, was so high ? weeeeeeeee ~ And i'm like so happy i also don't know why am i so happy i smsed most of the people is like almost 10 ? 5 replied me haha too easy to statistic :D:D then messaging with lots of smile then sms people all the way till half way suddenly felt bored again awwwwww ~ Then went to prepare then Ai Sung come come fetch me, we went to sing damn he never book ! ROAR have to wait till 6.45 nevermind this time we went to mum mum cause i haven ate anything, Then went sing sing after that he send me back home :D that's all for the day.

I Don't know now, what is our relationship just normal friend or ???

OR is it i think too much ?

20 March 2011

2011-03-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

Weee ~ i'm back to blogging le ~ went to Kbox with Sharon Baobei, Miao Xian Panda all have to wake up early is like have to reached there, cause it's starting at 11, when we reached there beginning we like all so quiet and so low la and panda like going to sleep ! After that i move all the high high song up both of us gone crazy :X but then become Sharon at there low low liao, After that back to normal sing sing then photo time session LOVES a lot of the photos. Nice Nice. Will Updates ll the photos, I can said that Panda camera not bad :D After K Panda go find Mak, We waited for Pris come over, We have dinner together after weeeeee ~ Went to shop shop and i bought 2 clothes :D next time i guess i should hunt for skirt le.

Photo time :D

15 March 2011

2011-03-15T09:29:00.000-07:00

Today woke up early as usual, then today was so surprise that the bus is so so pack ! and the bus took very long and i'm almost late for work, luck i reached there before Dexter does :X then went into office was quite busy all the way till lunch time then very slack and get bored again, then keep on clicking on updates for email then suddenly pop out so many job i'm so damn happy :D cause finally i've something to do, then get busy with Documents and packing. After that went to meet baby at PS then have dinner after that went to wait panda knock off :D:D:D, we go mum mum then something happen and i don't wish to say. I want to be silent for a moment nothing much to update.

13 March 2011

2011-03-13T00:13:00.000-08:00

~HAPPILY ATTACHED TO ANDY TAN YANG SENG~

I'm back to blogging 2 days never update le , woohoo ! sat i never go work sia sleep till so late i'm so damn tired nah ! Have a wonderful sleep, slept all the way till 3 plus like this. Then woke up use lappy all the way wait till baby go home then went over to find him we walked to Hougang to have dinner :D After that along the way we play play along the way hahaha ! naughty baby ~ Reached home le keep using my iphone till low batt then charge after that fall asleep. Today woke up at 1 plus nothing to do rot at home cause no money sia :(:( now i don't even have at least 10 bucks in my wallet this is how poor am i ! Alright nothing much to post le weeeeeeeeeee ~

9 March 2011

2011-03-09T06:16:00.000-08:00

Weeeeee ~ Blog blog blog :D, Today i'm like full of energy cause fall asleep damn early last night, woke up prepare then fly out le but then i don't like going work in morning cause the transport will be like damn damn full :( have to squeeze all the way, then reached Expo wait for my manager under the sun a lot of people is looking at me cause i'm siting below the sun and not going in to the shelter LOL ~ the transport is too cold and i need sunlight to defroze myself. Finally manager reached, then he told me finally there are 1 client reply my message le after i send like almost 200 of emails IM SO DAMN HAPPY LA ! omg omg ~ Then work is ok cause i'm keep on learning steps by steps and things are getting easy :D I will still continue to learn de JIAYOU :D ... Good nights everyone .

8 March 2011

2011-03-07T09:14:00.000-08:00

weee ~ back to blogging le, Today work work as usual i'm still so tired when wake up :( doing the same thing sending emails but then after that around 12pm like this started to help up my manager le and still trying to learn, Have lunch first then continue doing the things needed to be done :D was quite happy la but then still trying to communicate with those people around there, jia you ~ Today have been like doing exercise going up and down the stairs. Reached home my house is full of people, then i was rushing like a crazy then went to Hougang Mall to meet him, he was starving to death :X then we had our dinner then arcade weeeeeeee ~ PARA PARA !! woohoo ! fun fun after 3 round then we went to Houngang Plaza waiting for darling to Collect her birthday present although is not very expensive la hope she will like it, Slack at void decks playing with iphone then gone ~ walked home was tired tired gonna sleep soon :D weeeeeeeeee ~

7 March 2011

2011-03-06T08:59:00.000-08:00

Weee ~ im back to blogging, Today woke up i think should be 11 plus then went to prepare and cab to Yishun bai bai, was damn tired in cab after that reached there sit there play with my mummy phone phone and pray have our lunch there was great :D after that went to temple Pray Pray again and DA XIAO REN . haha ~ After that went to Compass point i'm so afraid that Iphone is out of stock as this always applies to every shop ! but then i'm trying not to think the guy that my mummy know very good he help me find, I FINALLY GET MY IPHONE 4 ! WEEEEEEEEEE ~ After that have dinner at Compasspoint, after that shop shop awhile and i cut my hair ! cause this few days the weather seems to be quite hot, and people please do drink lots and lots of water to prevent from sick, Was charging my Iphone right now can't do anything about it . Alright nothing much to updates GOOD NIGHTS everyone :D

6 March 2011

2011-03-05T08:11:00.000-08:00

Weeeeeee ~ i'm back to blogging today, i will try blogging everyday de :D Today woke up early early Panda Sore throat :( then pei her go go see doctor, I seriously don't like Polyclinic cause the waiting time is so so long. IF someone seriously sick then the person have to Q for so long :( tsk tsk ! But is cheap la that's why most of the people would rather WAIT ! :( After that we went went to Serangoon there mum mum being Vegetarian for half day then Panda so poor thing can only eat so less. After that we went to take bus bus to Bugis was kinda of emo :( she was tired taking her nap i was looking at outside the window and a lot of things flash back with my mind i so long never take bus to Bugis le with someone usually we will take 80 then we sit sit take photo listening to songs i was going to cry at that time. Reached there walked walked over there get her lagging then walk around i'm like feeling cold and HOT ! in the end the old problem coming back headache again terrible can't stand I HATE IT awwwwwwww ~ then never sell separate de panadol le i was hanging all the while ! the pain go off and back again then having the feeling that going to black out cause today i don't feel any feelings on my body like flying like this .

5 March 2011

2011-03-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

LOL ~ someone said this photo is nice ~ Random !!!

Weeee ~ back to blogging haven been getting enough sleep since working, the job was kinda of fun i would like to learn a lot a lot of things :D but then i'm a slower learner :( maybe still need lots of practicals to get it. 我会好好加油的. The time will passed faster if there's things for me to do .. Im going to earn more more money and hopefully i will start to talk around and stop being shy ! Today time is going so fast cause have been running here and there and i'm already not feeling well :( plus tired sia ! Have change some items on my blog probably only the BANNER photos ! LOL ~hahah nothing much to upload tired nights everyone...

1 March 2011

2011-02-28T11:05:00.000-08:00

Weeee ~ now is just a beginning of a month le ~ Today is my last day at Robinson at Centrepoint, As usual no customers at all is so empty and Aunty is back today. Today beginning was a bit emo im sorry plus im very very shag some of them should know the reason ba, After that i keep thinking and think since today is the last day over there le i should be happy happy and make them happy too :D after work work Panda come come pei me we went to Cinileisure there walk walk around then decided to watch Movie then buy ticket then went to Fairprice that Ben Dan Andy don't know at where :X opsss ... Then went back to Cini then slack slack at 9 story sitting there high high wooo ~ LOL ~ then wait till movie starting le we went down we watched " Im number four" Beginning is too bored and i was like going to fall asleep then somehow the sound effect BOMB ! then i woke up liao the movie is nice nice :D Then after that we cabbed home home le sorry guys don't have so much of money still need you all help me pay will promise to pay you guys back then treat you all eat next time meet out soon . Tomorrow gonna start working in the new company le im quite scare ~ sigh ~ needed sometime to get close to people and get use of the new environment. Good nights everyone going to sleep le.

25 Feb 2011

2011-02-24T09:13:00.000-08:00

Weeeeeeeee ~ Im back to blogging once again, this few days i've been damn busy with hunting birthday presents,going out, celebrations.. Have a lot a lot fun, Yesterday went to Andy's house drinking Panda and Jing Wen was there, then then beginning it was like so normal then behind gone case :X but have a lot of fun went home in the morning then NOT FEELING WELL ! Gastric

:( saded ! dont like it and this is my first time getting hang over LOL ! 4 more days im no longer there anymore :( don't wish to go cause have a lot a lot of fun and then im going to a new environment again which i don't like it, saddest part farewell wonder will i cry on the last day ? weeeeeeeee ~ nights ~

19 Feb 2011

2011-02-18T09:49:00.000-08:00

Today is already 19 of Feb time passed so damn fast, It gonna start a new month again so am i going to continue this alone ? From Jan till now... How happy how good is my life ? FML ! Tired of doing things repeating and repeating, waiting and waiting there are no answer only me this kind of stupid will wait ! IF for people they might think that what for waiting so long and i waited is for months or maybe it turns to year ? and then ended up already forgotten about this thing ? Why am i so stupid ? i also dont know maybe use to it. 23 is coming everything is not told yet so should i work on that day a not ?

21 Jan 2011

2011-01-20T08:48:00.001-08:00

Wahh so long never update my bloggy le. Have been working and working and working hmmm.. being very tired at most of the time and sleeping real early. YEAH ! i'm changing changing !! alright nothing much to update ...

6 Jan 2011

2011-01-06T03:29:00.000-08:00

So fast today is the 6th le, i have been staying over here 4 days le. But then tonight im going home le and then tomorrow must start work le cause going have no money plus somebody birthday is coming le so must work hard earn a bit cash also good. This few days staying over here is happy but however there's still things going on my mind, Wanted to stop thinking also very very hard, I think sooner or later will get depression or already got it, i;m totally crazy ! Stay here once lying on the bed i started crying le thinking thinking thinking but then i have to leave here i cant stay here anymore T.T really bu she de. I have to LEAVE !!! :( hais ~ Dont when still got the time to meet darling le. Message for them ...

Darling.... This 4 days im staying here i'm so happy, really but then i jiu shi will cry :( i dont know why anything also cried it's like already a habit for me le, Once reach till night auto le but then you will still there for me when i cry sayang me and ask me stop crying. hais ~ Thanks for taking care of me for this few days, i'm happy but then i have to leave tonight le dont know when i can see you again le, maybe next time saw you is on your birthday le. Thanks a lot :D will miss you de.

Meooowww... Thank you meow meow when i sad sad you come di siao me, and i sleeping you also disturb me !!! i will remember de next time you watch out woof woof will bite bite you. bleah

6 jan 2011

2011-01-05T08:45:00.000-08:00

I'm here since don't know when le. There's happiness and sadness over here to. Happy things is I'm not that stress over here sadness is yesterday i saw some message i should not see and I'm almost crying everyday without fail thinking this and that how could i peace down my mind ? Yesterday think till terrible headache from i started crying till all the way to the morning i just can't sleep once thinking back of the message I'm like totally broke into tears that message i saw i could still remember it the message have been deleted away le and i think is time to go home le but however bu she de what should i do I'm tired... Go home bored stay here mixed feelings i can cry anytime... Sigh.. I got few question actually wanted to ask her but i don't have the time to ask her :( maybe i should just type here or send her message i just want her to reply yes or no...

1 jan 2011

2011-01-01T04:01:00.000-08:00

Today is a brand new year i thought i should be happy but i don't have any feelings right now like a dead person like this hurt pain sad happy i have none of the feelings now the only thing is i feel like going home and have a good rest. I now totally not like a human like a ghost ! I'm tired so so tired .. I broke off on the 31 the last day of 2010.

11 December 2010

2010-12-11T00:10:00.000-08:00

I'm back to blogging again ~ i think now im going to blog again. This few days im really not happy at all i have been crying all the times ? who know about it ? i'm WEAK ! i do cry easily because of such of the small things . But i cried who will saw it ? only myself when im alone. I cry how hard how pain nobody's know about it. I cant find anyone to talk to i felt so damn lost, WHO WHO WHO ?? even the person who i wanted to tell my everything is no longer there anymore . i only can post up my feelings in the blog. Why god is always playing with people ? Got the fate to meet each other but then always want it to be separate in the end so this is my life ? i feel so terrible i trusted de person i always wanted to see the person have gone again . I'm trap the the very deep of the dark holes, who got the key to release me out ?

9 December 2010

2010-12-09T05:47:00.000-08:00

Time passed so fast it soon going to Christmas wonder how this year going to celebrate it, Today was kinda of bored and im feeling im losing someone maybe im wrong but the feelings is still there. :( I really dont know how future is going to process. Im feeling uneasy, why ? Just hope today can just passed seriously im damn bored today. I wanted to meet someone but i couldn't it just too far and im unable to make my way over at home is really bored . I dont want to stay home alone.

26 November 2010

2010-11-26T02:39:00.000-08:00

woohoo, so long never update my bloggy. 2 More days to my mumny competition le, this years there is slightly differences because some of my friends is coming along :D haahha.. to support my mummy. I bet it should still be the same she's going to win it yeah. Will be updating after her performance. Byyee ...

11 November 2010

2010-11-11T03:12:00.000-08:00

I got a story to tell you guys. Once upon a time there's this girl who is so innocent, quiet, who met 6 new friends and stay together for 4 years everyday meet up almost like a family happily talking teasing around, dancing. But then the girl think that towards them have already faded the friendship. This girl is stupid enough she met this couple thought they are good person but after few months the true colours of this 2 couple came out and the girl is stupid enough who get cheated $1900, She really have no idea on how to do she found her sister have been chatting in msn a while from that day on the girl life changes she saw a lot of new things that she never been doing before, learning more and more things along the way but then all this is always a very short term memories only time is always moving, people is also changing. Her sister have lots of lots of things to settle there's not much time left for her, but then the girl have already said before she will always be by her side but then why she saying this kind of things to hurt the girl ? This is the third time ready anyone knows the feeling i dont think so. The girl have been crying non stop she's really really very sad this time round she is really lost she dont know what to do . Even she did so much is it not enough or help too much ? The feelings is really really hurt. The girl story have been ending here.

11 November 2010

2010-11-10T12:18:00.000-08:00

Woohoo ~ im back from blogging le :) Today darling bring her stuff to my house temporaily we have lunch together with my brother and Ivan then sitting at playgroung chat then Andrew came waited for baby finally seen him le haven been see-ing him le. Meet up he bring me to eat eat at Pasir Ris Park, the place is so nice sia .. love it a lot the especially the breeze over there after that finish our dinner went to White Sand there baby buy contact lens for me thanks a lot :) After that we went for fetch Ah Ber then went to movie we watch "71 in to fire" i think the movie name is correct the movie talks about those war thingy and those youngster joined the soilder the show is nice :D. After that went to Ah Ber house's downstairs gathering hahah plan to go where eat, have CJ for supper i think im gonna be pretty fat soon . I WANT TO SLIM DOWN !!! yes :D chatting over there then went home im so tired yawn thats all for the day.

8 November 2010

2010-11-07T12:14:00.000-08:00

Today dont know somehow i feel like updating my blog it had been dead for so damn damn long le. My lappy have problem le someone please help, this lappy to me is very important. Let me say about how i got this lappy, When Secondary 4 that time we are planning when we get into ite then all of us both a lappy to school somehow like this, i know that my family is not that rich to have one so im quite sad then i told my parents they said if strike 4D they will buy for me that time is also nearby my birthday i and i got it for my birthday present, but then after that im no longer studying i think i have make my parents all damn disappointed and i feel damn guilty she bought it for me becasue i will use for studying stuff like this but then now ? im not studying and in fact not working thats even worst. I really felt damn sorry to them so no matter what i need to repair this lappy and stay in a good condition and protect it. Secondly, Seriously a lot of things have happen and maybe im no longer the old time of me, Today actually planning to sort out darling de things and then suddenly she said about something really shock me, she said if i never called her in time we wont be see-ing her le, at the moment i heard it my tears fall off i dont know why but then the feelings is written in my dairy no one will knows it, and its hard to tell people too. Another time she told me to remember her in the message i read and i also cried that time seriously i dont know how to stop my tears from flowing im really really really very sad, totally blur also. hais ~ this is what i only knows about my feelings ba. EMO EMO EMO

3 August 2010

2010-08-03T03:20:00.000-07:00

Woohoo time fly so fast it have been 4 months le :D. i miss my internet really so damn damn much dont know when i could use again sigh ~ or maybe i need to wait very very long again saded ! :( this few days is still the same nothing much happen. thats all ~ the shortest post i ever have ba.

27 July 2010

2010-07-26T12:52:00.000-07:00

Sorry people my internet have been cut down so wont be onlining and blogging nowadays. Miss my internet so damn much still got around 9 more days before my internet is back hais ~ dont know how to passed my days without internet lucky i got work if not i more sian ahh ~ Just few more days ~ hais . This few days have be having those kind of weird weird dont dreams make me cried when i woke up is really like what the fuck i have been crying for the passed few days le. Enough le i dont care whatever what kind of punishment i deserve i dont give a damn ! Pissed ! nothing much to update le nights. ~

20 July 2010

2010-07-20T11:36:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 12 plus then prepare prepare and went to meet my mei mei and few juniors from guides then walked all the way to Rivervale mall have the BBQ chicken restaurant for lunch the pasta is actually omg ~ not that nice la. Then sit inside for quite long chit chat they talking Malay i dont understand. Message with jie jie after that Mei went to her friend left me and Aizira was walking and chit chatting all the way to Compass point the weather is so cooling very good . Reach compass bought her things and then bus back home reached home fall asleep was so so tired la. Awake at around 7 plus then watched tv till 9 online then chat chat then till dont know a certain time i kana nagging again like hell seriously which part dont make her clear ? she asked me when am i working i told her i working part time whats wrong with her i never said this is my permanent job is just that i haven found the full time job i like and then think why i made my mind i want to work because is just 10 more days i need to buy something ! Forget it she wont know how my feeling is but then she always like to take out her old passed and talk. Im already gonna be crazy im already in a crazy mode ! those people who know me will know.

17 July 2010

2010-07-17T13:24:00.000-07:00

Unjoo, Soy, Eugene and Eun-young, are four good friends who swear their friendship with blood late one night at chapel within their school compound. They promise each other that their bonds will last through death, so much that they are even willing to die together.

Strange rumors start to spread at the girls’ school and Unjoo’s younger sister Jung-un who attends the same school gets suspicious about her sister’s death. . She tries to find out the truth by questioning Unjoo’s friends – Soy, Eugene, and Eun-young but all of them mysteriously keep mum. What are they hiding? Why would Unjoo kill herself? Was it really suicide?

The remaining girls are chased by death as their promises weigh heavily over them. Will the desire, jealousy and lies that are hidden behind this pledge of death between the four girls unravel, along with the real truth behind Unjoo’s passing?

Nice show should go watch watch.

Woke up at 4 pm thanks jie jie for the morning call then slack a bit prepare to go out le wor went off at around 6 plus then meet Sharon waited for jie jie off we went to Ochard Cinileisure. Play Arcade DDR till high damn crazy but then the new version got a bit blur la dont know how to set up at first. After that high le ~ hahaha XP dance dance then after that went to have our dinner then meet Nick bought movie ticket then went to smoke smoke meet Wencong, then slacked at Mac Kaisin come find us then waited for Tangyong then arcade went to cinema watch show le then got something happen hais ~ the show is really awesome the sound effect the best, the last part is damn sad la then the show ended got a bit emo emo le. Went smoke smoke then cab home. Really thanks to the driver :) somehow keep on thinking about something if the person who is working then keep on saying dont have money how true isit ? asking people to pay in the end ? Gosh ! dont what's the thinking about it should not post much.

14 July 2010

2010-07-13T10:36:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 2 plus then bomb fall asleep again till 5 plus is damn tired la woke up then watch tv then watched my brother play game a while change turn then try new cig half time black wor then go down buy maggie mee come back cook use mircowave in the end the mian like -.- so er xin la eat a bit never eat le then watch tv till 9 then online chat chat play game facebook then heard this song very familiar thinking where i heard this before then i finally know where i heard before le i cried le hais . Plus the Mv also damn damn sad la .. nothing much to say le.

我爱他

10 June 2010

2010-07-12T04:52:00.000-07:00

Woke up very lazy as usual online, facebook play game this and that till around 7 plus like this go over find jie jie le wor then to Kovan after that bus to Bugis Jie Jie phone a lot of people sms-ing lor hahaha ! dealing with big big business haha. XP Reached there met Wencong and Tang yong with his girlfriend went to arcade have 2 rounds of basketball with Wencong then smoke smoke headed to oasis 68 finsh 1 jug of beer went over to Neverland there somebody is there then bo bian after that have another 2 jug back to Oasis 68 again this time round dont really know how much we have drink just know that keep on going in and out because both of them outside haha TangYong left. After that send someone back first headed to Social house that time a bit drunk le. XP go there find Vincent order 1 tower keep on chiong left me and Kaisin then we talk talk then drink drink because cannot let someone drunk because she still have daughter to take care of hahah. so we both cheers all the way finish 1 whole cup each time but then im too weak le get drunk then vomit till damn terrible,they headed to macdonald to have breakfast then cab home le woo ~ super fun la hahah XP alright nothing much to update le guess after this incident a lot of people will forbid me to go le hahahah.

7 July 2010

2010-07-06T12:47:00.000-07:00

Once again im back to updating my bloggy. This few days dont know what's happening to me.My mind is totally blank dont know what to do feeling very sleepy after i wake up. Hais ~ then nowadays woke up use my lappy till all the way till night time then heard my mummy said that the electric bill is increasing again hais ~ then was kinda of worry that if usage too much then mummy no money pay need cut off again .. i dont know what am i thinking la really really feel like crying because of something :( I dont know la emotions have been changing here and there angry, sad ? mixed ! whats happening to me ? After saw some pictures i broke into tears le i really cant take it :(

好人不是因该有好报吗？

2 July 2010

2010-07-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 4pm then use lappy a while then bomb fall asleep again at 6 plus till 7 jie jie sms me then go bath bath then go over meet her. After that headed down over to Hougang meet her jie jie then went off le to fetch Kaisin then to Holland sit there quite a while but then all my starhub number all OUT OF STOCK ! dont know what happen guess most of the people also using starhub ba xP hehhe ~ Went to Karaoke there sing sing drink drink then went to Oasis 68 woohoo ~ damn lots of people inside damn high was a bit drunk XP because i mix 3 kind all together LOL ! haha .. nothing much to update le bye bye .

Picture !!

30 June 2010

2010-07-01T02:46:00.000-07:00

Woohoo ~ woke up at 4pm then went to bath bath prepare this and that till 5 plus i think then bus over to meet jie jie very difficult to contact her la because still no prepaid at the moment then saw her message so went over to where she is . Sit there a while chat chat, bus to Tampines to collect the phone then train to Tanglin meet Kaisin have dinner after that went up to her jie jie house there sit sit a while then went off to oasis 68 pub think that's the name the bass is really high la, but then the air con is kinda of hot lor. Drink drink inside there damn high de then got something happen guess should not say ba is over le. All the people start dancing hahaha ... Cool . we drink till around 5 or 6 plus it's raining outside so someone send us. Reach jie jie house downstairs sit down chat chat a while we 2 cry like crazy like this then went home afterward :( So that's all for the day.

29 June 2010

2010-07-01T02:38:00.000-07:00

Woke up around 1 plus if im not wrong when jie jie sms me at 11 sorry, too tired le XP then faster went to prepare and went to Tampines meet meet her. Without prepaid is really damn hard to contact people la arghh .. cannot sms also sian but then soon im gonna change hp number le. Reach there le met her then went to Nokia Care her phone needs to send in to hospital again haha XP then after that her father-in-law called so she need to go home so went to her house a while then Kaisin also meeting then went to Tiong Bahru Plaza suppose to walk walk over there in the end bring some much trouble to them really very sorry and thank for both to help me up if not im gonna to be ps the whole day sia !!!! hahaha .. After that saw Kaisin last time friends then went to coffee shops chat chat, went off have nothing decide to go Holland road sit there manage to find some people come down chat all the way till morning :) then home sweet home hehehe ..

Heard this story before from someone last time:

A old man saw a young boy facing the sea throwing something, the old man walk forward and saw a lot of starfish on the shore so he asking the boy there are a lot of starfish on shore how could you throw all back to sea ? The boy repiled : I know i could not send them all back to the sea but then i could help most of it back to the sea and save their lives. The old man was touch he help the boy too.
The story let me learn something, as long as im still alive i want to help out those people who needs help no matter in what issue im really willing to help out .

28 June 2010

2010-06-27T12:39:00.000-07:00

WeE ~ im back to blogging today, was half asleep and awake from 5am all the way till 1o plus pei jie jie sms haha XP woke up at around 12 plus then online chat chat, facebook same thing around 5 plus change change go send Wencong back to camp have dinner with him at macdonald is such a chaos over there lots of people there but then we manage find a place to settle down and have dinner hehehe ~ after that walk walk around go smoke then after that jiu go home le and the worst thing is my prepaid is EMPTY cannot sms liao :( however, tomorrow i will get to top up my prepaid. So happy :D can use phone again le. Today time like passed so fast now going to 4 am le. Should stop here XP

25 June 2010

2010-06-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

edited by jiejie

It's have been coming to the 1 week that I never meet jie jie. 1 week like this sia day by day pass and soon is going to July le. Today I have a nightmare is it hinting me about something ? i really dont know the dream is like damn true. The dream went like this. It was about evening, I'm with my parents and relative when going home that time receive a message from Jie Jie said she want to meet me have something to tell me. Of course i dont reject make all the way to Toa Payoh her working places over there and i could even remember her company name "Submarine" After that i give her a call she said she want to go to ladies so i waited her at her company downstairs in the end she just get back to her offices saying that she have meeting without saying a word to me when i going off that time i pass through a ballroom saw her sitting over there. I just walked of with just disappointment when i woke up that time im with my tears and i cried awhile at there thinking is it some hint for me to stop pestering her and stop irritated her. I really dont know, hais ~ Seems like this few days jie jie didnt meet me her house is such a peace it should be a thing to happy for her ba .i really miss jiejie badly.

23 June 2010

2010-06-22T23:33:00.001-07:00

Wee ~ im back to blogging.. Im still the same at home watching show lalala ~ was kinda bored but i have no choice. Sian wonder when could i get out XP dont know leh so sian . Nothing special happen this few days . Was such a peace ~ hehe . will update soon .

16 June 2010

2010-06-15T14:04:00.000-07:00

Woohoo finally went out today with jie jie le went to Tanglin there got soccer match quite a number of people is there XP, and there were 2 guys asking for my number but then i cannot give ended giving my email address to them lalala ~ A bit emo at sometime i also dont know what happen just listen song sitting there and sing sing hehe ~ have supper and then drink drink today really moody so i could feel that im a bit drunk right here thinking about somethings. Those happy moments wont be long but then it is really happy to have that :) im so tired le going to sleep pretty soon le nights everyone :)

7 June 2010

2010-06-07T15:38:00.000-07:00

Slept at around 9 am if im not wrong keep on thinking this and that then cannot cool myself down fuck ! Woke up at 11 plus prepare and then meet jie jie and kor kor at Kovan walk here and there then went back to her house. Gina having fever hopefully she recover soon :) then kor kor go out that time gosh ! he kana accident jie jie like totally blur lor then of course worry of his uncle for sure then prepare all the documents then rushed to hospital in the end nothing worst happen went over to tanglin went back to their house again staying there for 1 night then girls talk a lot of things lalala ~ in just few minutes of silent flash back a lot of thing in my mind. What am i heading for ? no life, no future, no ambition, hais ~ dont know la stop here first bye bye ~

6 June 2010

2010-06-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

Cant sleep right now so decided to update my blog again lalala ~ came back from lan not long ago only but then i cant sleep read back my dairy all the things that have happen then feel like posting something. Inside all my dairy have written a lot a lot of things, Forever meaning somedays there will be an ending no matter what, examples friendship i dont know why all my friend will leave me no matter how long i think maybe the problems is my characteristic all my friends will go off no matter what i dont know why la ? Kinda of sad this few days someone ask me not to contact him anymore because of his GF just end with like this fine ~ then i will stop contacting him lor this is what he want ma. Jie Jie say life is short this is damn true, you may know what happen next minutes or seconds you may get into an accident you may not know, or you will passed away in a sudden and get to a place you no longer in earth, so now cherish all the loves one before you regret one day. Guess anything is arrange by god no one could change it this is our fate. Talk back again to my life now, it's now totally one word can represent "SUCK". I want to get rid of my daily life now wake up, watch drama all the way till next morning i could even forget to eat my meals. I JUST WANT TO GO OUT ! I dont care is slacking, doing nothing at outside i just dont want to stay at home and watch drama ! Super sian arghhhhhhhhhh .. i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out i want to go out !!!!!!!!! sigh~

5 June 2010

2010-06-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh it have been so many days last post. Seriously now life for me is freaking bored and meaningless doing the same thing everyday. Wake up, watch drama, all the way till the next morning then lights off doing the same thing like for weeks im super bored la and i hate my life now doing the same things and staying home everyday and im able to go out. I think days continue for me in this way im going crazy sooner or later on ba haiz ~ i hate it a lot a lot .... Sian alright nothing much to post ready bye people :)

25 May 2010

2010-05-25T15:56:00.001-07:00

Woohoo ~ went out today meet jie jie at night then went to Bugis haha.. Jie play car car then after we go play lan haha XP very fun. After that took bus 80 back to Sengkang le wor. Find Desmond then Vincent came up then Vin and Randy haha . Jie jie be our story teller told us a lot of her story after that all went to Cheers to buy things then seat at void deck talk cock haha then Jie Jie help Desmond make up damn look like girl sia OMG ! then her bf Vin XP haha damn funny sia but then didnt manage to video it down. haha.. After that tio people complain then we all like now already 6 plus le lor a bit lame leh then had our information written down after that all went home. This few days i have been crying all along the way haiz ~ i dont want to talk much about here is my personal thingy ~ Alright bye bye people.

21 May 2010

2010-05-20T14:20:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 2 plus by my grandmother knocking at our door to wake us up thought what happen then jump up open the door for her prepare and went to re-new our passport oh gosh the picture looks really sucks and then today took the photo also but then is much more better XP after that went to Jie Jie house downstairs wait for her walking here and there haha. Went to Orchard to find her friend walk to far east there and back to cini haha exercise sia walk around then went to Sing K so long never go le la then all mood like not good de both break off :( haiz ~ after that took bus all along the way was quite quiet have something in my mind. Thinking about is there really a thing call forever after so much pain i have suffer im really hard to accept that word ! FOREVER meaning last long will not break, wont lost contact ? how about forever friends ? i dont know la also dont want to find so much things to make myself crazy. Reach Desmond house's still thinking about something listen them talk blah blah blah then went to cheers bought things then sit at void deck chit chat then went home le. I dont know people know how i feel a not i dont like those kinds of feeling like being sent away i dont want explain further maybe i need time to cool down myself and stop thinking about those things ba. Im really very sad leh was typing and crying at the same time. I need to go cool down le ~

FOREVER= HOW LONG WILL IT LASTS ?

20 May 2010

2010-05-19T10:49:00.000-07:00

im back to blogging le. Woo ~ sian sia the whole day woke up by my mummy at 2 plus still damn tired yesterday we were drunk lor XP Went to have lunch with my grandmother after that walk around i damn sleepy want to go home sleep . Very worry things will happen to my jie jie but then heng ar nothing happen to her woot ~ hmm then night time have dinner then online then went to find baby back home thats all .. ~

18 May 2010

2010-05-17T13:03:00.000-07:00

*yawn* Im back to blogging, am so tired right now is already 4.04 am Im still awake wondering what can i do so decided to come blogging. Today woke at around 5 plus because last night we went to play rain LOL very free too long never played and we sit at the playground like for 2 hours ENJOYING the cold wind blowing then finally cannot stand ready so went back to baby house then went home, today watch show at home then meet jie jie around 8 to 9 like this haha. Went to Lavender,Bugis and little indian haha then some how somebody to call and rush her home so went home faster that reach home no key haiz waited my brother home then online then know something but then should keep it is private but then i really dont understand, and she never tell me what happen then now i dont know what to do very blur right now. Alright guess it's getting late going to sleep right now =)

I dont know why i just feel like crying

14 May 2010

2010-05-14T02:44:00.000-07:00

After so 1 whole week of fun is enough le and it's time to surrender liao and go back home. This whole week learn a lot of things and see thourgh a lot of things :) after lots of thinking reflections i finally know what to do le i dont care after i go back home what will happen but then i must thank jie jie and baby ~ if not them i sure die liao in this 1 whole week. Life is a challenge for everyone but then there are also so call memories and happiness, Everyone have it's own life, stress, friendship,relationship,family :) i finally understand it le. But then my this mind dont know when it turn crazy again XP will try to. hehe ~ Really is time to get back le and guys by the way my phone line is CUT off so wont be able to contact me but then dont worry will try top-up my prepaid card de :) Will soon update when i reach home de bye bye ~~~

12 May 2010

2010-05-12T23:03:00.000-07:00

This few days i really think a lot of things and maybe this few days when im out is the most happy monet and let me change back to my passed the cheerful type of me i really want to maintain that side of me rather then being emo and crying let hell everyday . I dont know what to say ..... END

12 May 2010

2010-05-11T12:59:00.000-07:00

IF everything can be so easily settle how would i like it ? I just dont want her to care which kind of friends im mixing with i dont care whether is good or bad. I really dislike those kind of feelings by being alone all by myself, being emo or whatever shit. So whats that meaning of having a tattoo or smoking or drinking is a bad person ? Everyone have it's passed did anyone give them another chance ? Whatever i say people will always say i did the wrong move. This time round im protecting my friend why ? Because i dont want to lost any of my friends anymore i have enough of being alone. Whenever i have problems who can help me out ? WHO ?! I dont want to say much about i want to cool down at the time being.

10 May 2010

2010-05-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

Seriously i dont know what to do, I know im those kind of soft spoken person yeah and I know that im those kind of very hum person. I cant sort out things and now im really really going crazy pretty soon. My mother report to police thank to her so much man . I LOVE IT A LOT ! now the problem is Jie jie keep on help me but then i dont even know how to help myself to solve this, im really afraid if she been lock up , Jail ? Or whatever SHIT. Npw my mind is totally 100% empty dont know what to do if really one day those officers really found me so what ? they going to send me to girls home ? Always use this kind of thing to threaten people i already said i have my own freedom to mix whatever friends it is. I dont want you to care about it like mei mei say, how could someone just judge the cover without opening it. This is really correct, now my heart really very pain i dont want someone who is close to me and gone like this or maybe this is god arrangement i really dont know. I just know that if someone is close to me the person will get bad luck i dont know this is my imagination or its true i cannot make it clear now im like a animals losing the way i dont know what will be my decision i really dont know .. Haiz ~

Im going to die pretty soon le i cant stand it anymore ~

8 May 2010

2010-05-07T13:18:00.000-07:00

I guess all of the thing is going to have a ending. My life now totally is like rubbish i know if i tell people who knows me they must thought that chey is just a small thing or whatever shit for me is really enough le Im really sick of tired to have this kind of life. Who dont want freedom ? everyone wants it of course, but then my parents just dont know what i really want they say we are like happy family ? Ya is only they say so but then did they ask us a not ? they dont know what we really want think that everything they done for us is correct ? LOL ! When that day she lock me home ! im like being a dog ya i know i do all this im like so bu xiao i really have enough of it le i need time to cool down she can even like this scold my jie jie ... -.- forget it la this kind of family ! im really tired of it le. Alright i have nothing much more to say .

I just need time to cool down

7 May 2010

2010-05-06T13:19:00.000-07:00

Im back to blogging this few days really there's lots of thing happening in my life i really hate it a lot especially my house things. Yesterday have a big quarrel with my mother and then she lock us home that kind of feelings really SUCKS what could i say ? Haiz ~ thinking back about those nightmare i always dream when i was young really feel quite sad and i afraid of losing someone close to me that is true haiz ~ but then this time round she is really a bit over le. I dont know how to say i really feel very sad. Life is short maybe somedays something happen and the person who have passed away. Haiz ~ whenever i think of it, it really bring me down and my tears are uncontrollable falling maybe after somedays i have cool down and really think about it, it just the matter of time ba. No ones know what i really want i just want people to care for me and love me thats all is it so difficult till my parents dont even know it ?! LOL ~ alright nothing much to update byeeeeeeeee~

Life is really very short..

2 May 2010

2010-05-01T16:01:00.000-07:00

woke up around 3 ++ after that went down with jie jie to buy things this and that. then reach home play mahjong again have news that need to go over to make computer thingy reach there around 6 then help out all the way to 10 then went to Plaza Sing to find my brother they all arcade then meet Tang Yong over there. They went to watch movie we 2 idiots sitting there for hours waiting for them to finish then chatted a lot a lot of things hahaha .. Then slack till around 5 plus cab home meet jie jie then go home together. So here am i updating my blog again hehe ~ nights everyone :D byeee ~

1 May 2010

2010-04-30T13:12:00.000-07:00

Slept at around 4 to 5am like this then fall asleep a while have a nightmare is like damn what the fuck !? I woke up crying hopefully that nightmare wont come true ba if not i really will cry like hell de haiz ~ woke up jie jie cook for us haha XP eat le then prepare go out. Today went to my grandmother house's grandfather death anniversary then ate a lot of food went to parkway parade there to help my uncle wife to sign contract for internet haha. Shop shop around then went back there then have dinner le help her set up laptop thing then cab home with my mummy le reach home here are we again MAHJONG ! hahaha XP alright nothing much to update le nights everyone takee care ~MISSED

30 April 2010

2010-04-29T12:00:00.000-07:00

Did not sleep well last night actually slept in the morning XP around 11 plus is so damn tiring. Then woke at 2 plus very very shag the whole day then prepare went to Hougang my half soul like already gone ! LOL .. Went to Hougang actually to take back jie jie de medisave thingy de then the person told her that tomorrow could get the sum,Koven,she called to check with the person in bank it took 3 working days to process haha we all like hohoho ~ die liao lor still got 3 more days so long. Went back to her house to take some of her belongings then could see that she dont bear to leave her girl girl lor . Went back home feel damn headache sia lack of sleep maybe hopefully no other reasons. They packing my room im so like damn ps la but then i really no energy le ma. Like half dead XP after that i came back to alive LOL ! WAHAHAHHA ~ Alright nothing much to add on nights everyone :D

27 April 2010

2010-04-27T10:06:00.000-07:00

Yes after so much things jie jie finally back to normal le so happy sia and no need see her so tong ku le . Today very very shag because yesterday la haha only 3 people know what happen only so shhh ... XP then woke up 1 plus sms jie jie then all the way sms her im like half sleeping half sms la the whole day. 3 plus went to bath then back to my bed again very lazy sia i like dead person like this cant leave my bed totally no energy la fall asleep till 10 plus my mummy come back home liao then woke up eat some bread . now here am i blogging and finally jie jie ok le yipee ~ so happy can open champagne le LOL . today whole day so shag sia . already nothing much to update le lalala ~ nights everyone .

25 April 2010

2010-04-25T02:44:00.001-07:00

This few days jie jie having lots problem and totally bring her down i guess this whole week is her raining day out of 7 days maybe there were 5 days she was crying over ! 2 days back we get back from cini half way she went down the bus and she said she will be walking back home i was like huh ?? walking back home its like damn far la in the end she chase me to take a cab home in the cab i was crying like FUCK the best thing is the uncle on those kind of classic music more worst ! Reach home i totally shag and i started all the nonsense again le having tatoo on my hand i see her like this her pain is double of mine .. so this is totally nothing. I dont know what the hell her bf doing seriously i really dont understand sia. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~~~~~~ Im going insane confirm. Jie jie gone mia again the most scary thing sia totally cant find her one woke up sms and call her nobody answer till we almost going report police le. Haiz ~ i was like crying and thinking what happen to her why so late le still nobody answer the call im really really afraid what if somebody close to me is not there anymore i will sure landed up in mental hospital or something . I now really very sad i dont know this feelings really hurt a lot.

i hate the feeling of being left out . it really sucks~

22 April 2010

2010-04-22T11:48:00.000-07:00

Im back to blogging le woke up at around 3 plus if im not wrong hehe ~ XP is like a pig lor keep on sleeping. Prepare and then meet Desmond then went to Bugis meet jie jie le she playing Maxium Tune her mood dont seems good ba power then they can keep on play all the way till 9 to 10 till they tired liao then slack slack like this talk talk smoke smoke .. 11 plus took bus went back le. Online Jie jie told me everything really feel very pain for her lor she need to handle everything but then i cant help out anything haiz see her like this really heart pain she say those things i can feel how much pain , and she must sacrifice herself haiz .. she say those things im crying like hell but then cant help out. Haiz. Nights le everyone.

To Jie Jie: Whatever the challenge is no matter how hard the road is i will always be with you to overcome everything i say le jiu will do it , and jie you have past so many hard path le this time round you sure will overcome it so jie jie must jiayou never ever give up ! :D

19,20 April 2010

2010-04-20T09:28:00.000-07:00

Woke up went to jie jie house and then waited for them and off we went to tanglin guess jie jie addicted to the game le sia hahaha XP. Then play with her girl girl Gina quite naughty de lor haha the fact :X. Went back to jie jie house that time still rainning so kor kor suggest me to stay over there then use computer then a lots a lots of message sia very fann her one like got a lot of business like this LOL .. Then i very very emo then jie jie peii me chat chat about her stuff she really very yong gan lor 21 only go through so much pain and suffer in her life seriously heard all those things feel so sad for her sia but then she manage to settle everything so it's a good thing hopefully now all the new problem came in she got a way to solve it ? chat till early in the morning.

Im like so damn high la keep on talk cock but then my energy wont last long suddenly cool down then my batt is like low batt omg we have plan our agenda for the day, my whole day like zombie like this. First we went to Tampines then jie jie bought a lot a lot of things for me wor so happy :) we went to the clinic in the end result is the boss not there -.- must wait till 26 or 27 is like fucking long la who can still survive man ?? LOLS ~ After that cab to Defu lane jie jie interview then i at downstairs nothing to do i fall asleep i feel something very not right really i dont know it is my imagination or what but then really theres like something touching me i could feel it sia jie jie tap me to wake me then we went out of there then went to bus stop the distance is really far if afternoon or evening walk in sure sweat like ... Kovan Jie jie keep on asking me to go home and rest but then i reject because i dont like the feelings of being alone and i guess no one like it so tried to hang on to it, took bus 80 to Bugis omg i slept all the way sia then arcade time a while then went to west Coast saw Desmond over there too hehe ~ then jie jie meet her hubby ? ermm am i right ?? haha .. then over there they chatting we like so extra like this wor we catch no balls what they were talking about. haha .. after that went home le in train i fall asleep again -.- im so so so tired lor .. hehe finally here am i home i think i gonna have a heavy heavy sleep tonight zzzZZzzzzZ ... good nights everyone. Today i really really happy go out with jie jie so fun although a bit attitude course tired le XP LOVE her a lots muackz ~

19 April 2010

2010-04-19T07:55:00.000-07:00

Heyy ~ blogging right now from my jie jie house. wa lau today is what day man it's like April fool for me like so many trick from people ? why ? all three bomb together like this what is this man ??? Wahh ... im going to die ready sia .. FUCK !!!!!!!!!!! now me just want to be single right now i want to cool down .. im really very stress ready please !

18 April 2010

2010-04-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 3 plus staying all the way home is like super tired man and bored, my whole house is so dark like haunted house like this. Scary lor i staying my room the whole day dare not to go out -.- then around 5 plus jie jie went mia .. Lie on the bed and keep on think think think till i going to fall asleep Scare got things happen to her sia until 9 plus finally she on phone le. What a relieve wahh really very scare later she got things happen then told me something about that bitch and i guess i also wont care that bitch le all her things is none of my business. Alright so here am i updating my blog hehe :D and onlining taggs please .

Jie Jie and me XP

12 April 2010

2010-04-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

Didnt went to school have a break woke up around 1 or 2 plus still feel that not enough of sleep sia tired and feel a bit headache le . Went to Tanglin then play with her daughter she is so cute la haha but then quite difficult to handle :p cannot take it went to buy 2 panadol but then it seems like no use. We were there till around 5 plus i think went back to their house then jie jie prepare we went out le to hougang mall have sabu sabu for dinner haha but then this time round jie jie mood not good :( but then i seriously dont know what to do sia so both of us just eat without talking haiz ~ After that we went to hougang plaza she da bao food for alvin kor kor, then play the stackers again haha .. Went home after that got something happen which make me feel so hurt and im kick out of the HOUSE ! i have nowhere to go so find jie jie a while then cry till like hell after that here am i blogging .. I dont even know tomorrow will i make it for school a not im so fucking tired ! *yawn* alright i have nothing much to say ready nights everyone haiz ~

11 April 2010 (Jie Jie house's)

2010-04-11T16:16:00.001-07:00

Today went to jie jie house's and then dont know how to go reach there im like LOST ! walking round and round the playground like an idiot like this finally found then reach jie jie house le. After that we went to eat sabu sabu o.O dont know did i spell correctly ? After that went to Taglin there find her friends then then off we went to rounding woohoo ~ high sia hahaha .. but then this time round didn't went to a lot of place after that reach hougang plaza dont know what to do because if i reach home i sure will sleep because still got some free time so jie jie pei me actually planning to go lan in the end CLOSED ! ok then nevermind saw Philips and Ronald playing pool then jie jie start to play the stacker things haha win a lot of things sia :p hehe .. then decided to go to jie jie house's to stay over for 1 night guess have bought a lot of trouble for her sia haiz ~ sorry ! END

10 April 2010(Blogging at Jie jie house's)

2010-04-11T16:07:00.000-07:00

Woohoo ~ this was my second time on bike and then this time round they plan to go rounding high sia but then actually quite scare haven get use of it and i have 4 drivers Philips, Guo Wei, Andy and baby, got the change to try all different kind of speed wee ~ firstly we went to near outram there if im not wrong after that to henderson and then Yishun Dem last to Changi Airport and is like so funny all of us lost pair by pair the place look damn dark then have so called breakfast over there haha was damn tired didn't get anything and at that time thinking that i going cannot make it le. after that choing all the way back and then baby is lost .. they went back to find us then reach home around 8 plus then reach home prepare actually planning to go pray de too tired le fall asleep half way then keep on kana gan lor nag nag nag .. Thats all lalala ~

10 April 2010

2010-04-09T14:09:00.000-07:00

Woohoo ~ this few days really have lots of lots of fun with Vicky Jie Jie she let me forget a lot of things sia teach me lots of dao li really thank a lot. Today woke up by a shocking sms im totally like blur la then faster wake up prepare took a cab down to Hougang Plaza to meet jie jie saw her like crying like this but then i dont really dont know what to do sia dont even know how to help out haiz~ after that we went to Ochard to collect her handphone from Nokia Care have dinner then went to Bugis High hahaha we are DDR siao lor keep on play then some of the steps miss in the end step on those NAILS it hurt man ouch ! there saw some of my jie jie de kor kor (quite complicated ar ? haha ) after that finally got the chance to see baby le miss him so much man .. we went to cini with jie jie de kor kor's to catch a movie that one is gangster show very very nice sia after movie receive such a shocking news actually is really a good news for my jie jie lor im also very happy for her :D but then haiz ~~ i really dont want to say much le a bit emotion now going to sleep le really very tired le . Nights everyone.

7 April 2010

2010-04-06T10:38:00.000-07:00

im really really so HURT ! who can understand my feelings ? yeah im a cry baby so WHAT ? once and ever i keep on keeping hurt. NO FRIENDS who care for me, NO FUTURE who knows what am i thinking i can anytime where i dont feel alright i could cut myself i could jump down whats more ? in my life maybe ya there's 2 who i really really trust my baby and dearest jie jie (Vicky)who willing to help me if both of them not with me i really dont know what will i do ! seriously those people who have been my best friend for YEARS ! i could even do those things to them. WHAT to do the time also cannot turn back and i guess they will really hate me A LOTS for my stupid decision i have make ! but then i really regret for my decision .. HAIZ ... This few days really a lot of things happen to me i really need my baby, my jie jie , my friends to pei me to go through all those things i really really sad i dont know what to do. i have been crying over and over again, im really tired of it who can really help me ? although yeah i guess im quite drunk but then all this things is really what im thinking in my heart always never clear.Those happy days with my friend, those times with the person who LIES to me which i believe the most.. WHATS MORE ?? how about next time ? who will come and read my post ? i could even remember all those people who related to me .

Clarissa- Darling, Jie jie.
Kenny-Kor kor, Uncle
Longting- mama
Rebecca- ah ma
Xuan Wei- tai ah gong
ah bi- jie jie

all those people who really brings me lots of laughter but then i did a really wrong decision when i even think of it i really really cry my heart really hurts a lot . thanks to my dearest jie jie ah bi she could even say she want find me out to beat ! i dont even know when is the day it will happen . i thought i always makem the person happy maybe this is my mission but then i guess im really in the deep wrong . who knows ? my mother always say this word 酒后吐真言. now i believe it all this things i have post to today is really from my heart. Now i really thank my baby and my Vicky jie jie who help me out love you all a lots if dont have you guess i might not be alive anymore ! although i just know you guys for a few days but then i know you guess are really trying to help me out. Love you guys a lots muacks ..
Im crying while im note all this things down . its getting late ready so good nights .

4 April 2010

2010-04-04T12:53:00.000-07:00

Chee Bye ! good that bitch dont want to admit everything she done nevermind i believe god have eyes and can be witness now she can dont admit good lor her .. i will always remember her one. THANK FOR EVERYTHING MAN dare to do dont dare to admit HAHAHA this is so funny man nevermind i think she thinks that money is more important then family, Friends nice one dont know why this world still got this kind of people sia. Guess this kind of people can destroy the whole world man *sigh* hopefully the world can turn into peace again wor .. i really super super angry .. tonight not going to sleep again le .. first time in my life have this kind of feeling sia .

3 April 2010

2010-04-03T11:49:00.000-07:00

Fall asleep in the morning at 6am was so tired but then woke up at the time at 2pm i think of a call, then online a while after that go prepare and cab down all the way to Queenstown CC was a bit scare actually because the taxi driver also dont know where is it and im first time going over there but then he manage to find the way and his speed is woot ~ reach there was quite hungry because yesterday the whole day didn't eat then heard that my mummy say must wait till 10 pm plus i was like die le die le haha .. But performance can eat free buffet mummy steal some for me XP a lot of can call senior citizens hahaha :X a lot sing till out of tune de and some cant catch rythem the worst thing is the P.A the music keep on not ready ! if people pay 50 bucks and have this kind of concert -.- waited so so so long finally my mummy turn le and then when i video the people keep on walking in and out im like going to shout can you all stop walking in and out a not damn angry de. Mummy sing till nice but then the sound like a bit too sharp maybe should edit a bit ba . :D reach home da bao food then thats all for today :D nights everyone ..

IM ATTACHED :D

3 April 2010

2010-04-02T13:10:00.001-07:00

Today finally everything is settle everything from bottom of my heart have spoke up. My heart really really very pain but then i guess the thing faster settle rather then drag it longer and longer. Yeah i know im stupid ! i have really learn the lesson. Haiz ~ mood very low but then thank to those people who have help me out who have support me really thanks a lot of you guys. Nothing much to post this few days may be quite emo im gonna be alright and i must continue jiayou ! tomorrow will be a better day.

22 March 2010

2010-03-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

BACK BACK today seriously damn not feeling well de sia ~ sick sick .. didnt turn up to work today o.O ~ alright will update tomorrow ba :D

21 March 2010

2010-03-20T11:40:00.000-07:00

Gosh im back to blogging again this few days hmm .. what can i say not really good ? my Jie quit liao then next time no people pei me work le haiz no fun liao all of the old staff quit and just left me alone with the old people haiz ~ sian sian sian i also want to quit liao la like this very bored lor all so serious no joke, no fun haiz ~ today working night shift a lot of customer earn around 1800 if im not wrong because i came back ma wahaha (rubbish) .. very very tired then sms Kelvin so damn long never seen him ready sia so he bring me to eat supper as i still got a bit hungry he fetch me from cp haha thanks a lot and then we went to dont know where eat Roti Prata haha .. chat chat a while then he drove me home haha on the way we lost our way =P because he drove that road dont pass there often plus at night cant really see he send me home thanks hopefully there is another change to have supper with you hehe ~ reached home online chat chat thats all ba :D recently finish watching this show "jiu xiang lai zhe ni" damn nice lor ELLA super CUTE hahaha .. alright this is one of the song enjoy :D

礼物

13 March 2010

2010-03-13T08:31:00.000-08:00

Haiz i'm back blogging today, today is seriously my worst day. How am i going to say ?? Today woke up at around 1 then went to Bugis find Jie Jie then chat chat after that start work ready actually going to amk but then in the end got problem suddenly my jie was asked to leave so she left and she cried im like so dumb sitting there with her cannot do anything then kor came and then somehow they started quarreling with each other im like the middle person i cannot even talk a single things because maybe age different dont know how to say out my thinking if i help one side other side wont be happy what am i suppose to do im seriously a idiot after that Jie settle with Francies after that she and Kor haiz ~ i dont know what to say sia i was ask to leave so waiting for the bus in the end decided to take a long way home then listen song think think and then maybe i should just start a new life. I'm here to announce that DORA LEE XUE PING IS DEAD ! SHE IS JUST A BITCH THAT'S WHY NOBODY WANT TO CARE HER SHE IS A USELESS PERSON WHO CANT EVEN HELP OUT IN ANYWAY !

7 March 2010

2010-03-07T10:08:00.000-08:00

It have been quite a long time when i last updated my blog. This whole week have been working working and working quite tired, today only a new trainee and me working is so freaking tiring the new trainee order list got mistake can't blame her everything also need to learn from basic ma nobody born out to be talent know this and that, so teach her a bit then night time is a nightmare man suddenly lots of customers coming in. Alright tomorrow still working nights everyone.

23 Feb 2010

2010-02-23T07:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

Woohoo im back blogging, Yesterday went to pub to count down my Jie jie birthday plus help her celebrate :) Drink a lot a lot and this is my first time drinking matell, and im drunk :X haha. But then i know that all the people over there is like so high la so fun hopefully there still will be those kind of event coming hehe ~ then Kai Bin send me all the way home thanks a lot sia. Reach home straight bomb fall asleep so tired but then miracle sia today i woke up for work and im not late :) hehe ~ but then im really really very tired break time i fall asleep till dont wish to wake up, dinner time not really much people coming in :D alright nothing much to post nights.

19 February 2010

2010-02-19T08:13:00.000-08:00

Once again i'm back blogging :D This few days being a good girl staying at home at night. Gosh ! i guess i'm going to become FAT ! always eat eat eat i think i need slim down ready if not i'm going become a pig HAHA. Yesterday went to Yokozuna and to Bishan to finish the board after that cab home damn worried that i dont have enough money and half way my handphone went out of battery lucky the driver speed is fast :D thank. Reach home doing Videos till all the way 5 am then fall asleep. Today woke up continue those part that were not complete and off i went to Bishan then pass to her and off i went to Yokozuna again LOL . I guess im crazy lalala ~ and and 4 more days to my jie jie birthday le hehe ~ alright nothing much to update nights people.